Holy Week...

As Holy Week approaches, or we approach it, I am getting a little sad. Not just because of Jesus dieing, but because Lent will be over. I know it will be a celebration. But it seems like I'll be going back to the same ol' same ol'. In someways I have. I hadn't been sleeping very well and was really tired at work, so I bought a bag of fair trade coffee, telling myself that I did pretty well for most of the season, so I could give myself a break. As long as I don't get into the habit (like everyday) of drinking it, then I think I've accomplished something. I'm still pretty bummed that I didn't make it the whole 40 days.

Same with facebook. I am excited to get back on facebook and share things, see what others are up to. At the same time I'm disappointed that I didn't refrain the entire time. I've realized some strengths and weaknesses. One thing that makes me want to be on facebook is my loneliness. Living alone sucks, I don't care what anybody says. I used to say that I was "good to go" as single gal, and I am for the most part. But I really do believe we are not meant to live alone. It'll be good to be back in a few loops.

I was successful at the graham crackers. There was the least amount of temptation with these though I was offered one just today! Covered with dark chocolate nonetheless.

I am well-aware that I could continue my fast past the 40 days, but I think I've reached some valuable conclusions. One, I'm broken. Just like the rest of the world, I think giving into the temptations thrown at you will show that. That's why I need the restorative hope of Jesus. Two, even though I didn't "succeed" I learned a lot about myself. I experienced God in many ways. God inspired me to change my life and viewpoints and challenged me. So, whatever the point of fasting was, it was good. It was good, indeed.

As we enter Holy Week may we remember how broken we are. How broken were the people who crucified Jesus. How broken they tried to make him, but failed. Even today, we regard him as our Savior, the perfect Son of God. Though they tried to break the belief in Him, they did not succeed because Hope and Love is inextinguishable. Hope and Love, gifts from God, everlasting.